Apathy

holy fucking shit, billy joel last night was amazing. 
granted, the first two hours were pretty terrible, what with the drunken slobs of young adulthood and smokey mcpot lighting one up a row down. Plus the sound quality was shit, i couldnt understand what the piano man was saying. but i could hear the songs. 
anyhoo, tony benett came around and sang new york state of mind. yawn.
then garth brooks came out and sang some song i dont know. yawn.
then steven tyler came out and sang walk this way. okay, getting better.
then..WHAT? roger daultry from the FREAKING who came out and sang my generation. holy SHIT! i was NOT expecting him! i was so excited, i jumped up and started singing along with the drunks around me. 
anyhoo, i heard a rumor that paul mccartney was coming, so i wanted to stay. after what seemed like years of teasing (billy joel singing a hard day's night) and nothing...i was almost about to leave..when....the beatle came out. singing "i saw her standing there"...i was out of my mind screaming and singing along.
what a night.
now i can die happily

 I know i take the smallest things for granted. Like the fact i have two supportive loving parents, great friends, and my most valid point..the ability to see.
I feel that sight is the most important sense that beings have. I see new and miraculous things everyday, which then help me to become a stronger and more experienced person. It breaks my heart when i see people, especially children,  who are blind. I know they will never get to experience seeing a broadway play, or see the faces of their own parents or children. My great-grandmother went blind in her last years of life, and i've made the decision to donate my own eyes when i die. I'm sure as hell am not going to use them. 
This is probably why i freak out when anything gets near my eye. I'm so afraid of scratching them, or hurting them in any way. I treasure my ability to see and would never want to risk this incredibly gift. I'm still torn up on the question, is it worse to be blind from birth or to lose your eyesight during life? Is it worse to have never experienced sight, or to lose it all at once at one point in your life? I guess a similar question is, is it better to have loved and lost or better to have never loved at all?
What caused this semi-depressing post? I was walking in the city to see damn yankees (with sean hayes, who was absolutely adorable and hysterical btw) and i saw a child, no more than 12, walking down  with his parents. I could tell from his vacant stare and cane that he was blind. I just kept thinking of all the things he would miss out on in life. His loved ones faces, beautiful bright colors, the empire state building, the eiffel tower..oh i could just go on. Then again, if he's never actually seen anything in his life, he does not truly understand what he is missing out on. is ignorance truly bliss?

I figured i should start off my live journal with a cynical and pessimistic rant. Hello live journal world.. My name is Samantha and i have anger issues.
Let's start off with this new phenomenon, the self flushing toilet. 
I want to know, how LAZY can a person get? We are taught since grade school, nay, since we've first used the toilet to flush after we use it. It's not hard, i know for myself i've instilled it into my brain for the past 19 or so years. Yet, now, it seems that this process is too complicated for us. We need that fucking toilet to tell US when we're finished with it. Now, i never complained when the dish washer was invented (my hands touch those dirty plates, i don't think so), or the garbage disposal because those are only semi-lazy uses of technology. I want to be in charge of my bathroom experience, not some smart ass toilet telling me "oh, sam..you're done. get off the toilet and have a nice fucking day." 

Plus, i know in my experience, the toilet has flushed while i was STILL on the toilet. It's not even perfected yet! If you move your ass just a little on it, it thinks you're finished. And then if there's a huge line waiting, the next person gets excited and thinks "oh boy! this person before me is done, now i can relieve myself in a matter of seconds"....yet, that is not the case. You still need to finish your business, then wipe, and then that fucking toilet can flush AGAIN which is so redundant. Now this person behind you is antsy thinking "what is going on? she flushed! she should be out of there!"  Chaos ensues, and somehow it'll end up being your fault.

So, i'm not saying that technology has not helped us in the past. But, for christ sakes, you can flush your own fucking toilet.